HATE!

Just now i heard my parent talking bout me from my room...
they talking bout my study..

Now i dunno wanna choose inti or utar??
I also dunno i wanna choose american degree program in marketing and management or mass com in advertising???

Normally i dunno what i wanna do...Now i really hate this all!!!
From i small till now any education stuff all is my mum control ..
Now i have to handle my future but i feel like i am not handling my future...
I feel like i get control again..everyone said the course that we choose have to what we like.. But i like to take design but my mum dun let..

Now i dunno what i like and i dunno what i interested....

She hear those influence from them ...I really wanna ''Thank'' them !!!
I feel like when hear this all i really suffer with this all!!!
when think ths all think i will cry myself in my room..no one know that ...
I really start to hate to hear this all!!!
anyone who can help me!!! I really tired !!! I really hate ths all!!!